Why this strange feeling

The time now is 2 A.M and i am not getting any sleep...So what? whats big in this ? Its is my normal daily routine...But today it isn't( yesterday) . Around 4 P.M, i along with 2 other team mates were called for a sudden meeting with my India Operations manager...You could have guessed what....We went to meet him....Our heart beat rate shooting to sky and adrenaline flowing...Manager says " So,how you guys doing ?" Our faces went blank ! He continues..." As you all see, considering the present situation we are at and taking in mind the future projects, the management has decided to .....move you 3 to testing team...." Whew! Thank my bright lucky stars ...I am saved .....
But this was not the kind of reaction, my friends gave...They were quite sad to leave the present job profile which they loved the most...
I started consoling one of my friend telling about the positives of moving to new team...we get a new laptop, our job is safe, punch dialogues like " Only Change is permanent in this world " and stuff...
But @ night when i went to bed, hoping to get a sound lengthy sleep ( from tomorrow it isnt going to be... since testing being daunting task..) to my surprise i coudnt sleep...My mind started thinking about the group which i may join...how it would be if i end up in a group which i dont like...and how it would be if other 2 end up in better group than mine... and all permutations and combinations .... u know.... all those strange negative thoughts....
My mind starting feeling the exact opposite of what i advised my friend...

Its always easy to say " God gives what is best for you...what you actually deserve...." Ya! its absolutely true..No doubt..But inorder to swallow that truth and fill your heart and mind with it ...its almost impossible...
When we achieve what we aimed...we feel that " I have achieved it due to my hard and smart work " But when we land in exact opposite place...We start doubting our own ability, curse our luck,and have the strange feelings and negative thoughts ....
Now, the time is 2.30 A.M and i am going back to my bed..hoping to get a decent sleep....
And Hoping that my fate will take me to new chapter of sunrise and bright sunshine .....

Good night and sweet dreams....

my year of 2008

2008 was supposed to be a very important period for me..but it turned out to be different... 2008 started with a huge hope of getting into a dream company( me being a final yr student @ 8th semester) .Friends started talking about companies, salaries shifting bases to bangalore and so on... days passed on... assessments came and went ... enjoyed staying @ friends's house..night studies ....gossips chit chats... Then came the semester exams... my tough days started here... My grand mother was counting her last days... she passed away peacefully a day before my last exam ... Then followed days of commotions and confusions... Attended few companies now and then...
Some companies tested my patience mainly tallika and ibm ... both giving me high hopes of getting placed ..but only to reject me after many weeks...
My brother's marriage was round the corner keeping my family members occupied most of the time...
Then came a sudden storm in my life, when i came out of Cypress interview in Bangalore, a call from unknown number, giving me the shock of my life....
The following weeks were the most painful days of my life... with yet another incident acting like adding salt to bruise...
It made me understand the real meaning of fraction of a second, our live's worth, meaning of sorrow and list goes on...
Finally got placed in core company (Force10 networks) found new friends, a new chapter in my career had started... and it goes on...

In total, 2008 was supposed to be a turning point in my life...In fact it was... but it came at the cost of my dear friend...

Hoping 2009 would be smooth...